Some people matter, and some don't.

It's my senior year, a year to just be who you want to be. Laugh till you cry, scream like hell and love like crazy. You never know who will walk into your life and who will walk out of your life. You just have to cherish those moments where life is great and the bad ones, they are going to happen. Truth is; everyone if going to hurt you, there isn't a thing you can do about it. You just have to figure out who is worth suffering for.

After I got my heart broken by two people that I trusted more then anything in the world, not only with my heart, but my friendship. One has been one of my "best friends" since the summer of first grade. The other just came into my life on accident. To be stabbed in the back would be an understatement. Strangers stab you in the front. Friends stab you in the back. Boys stab you in the heart. Thank god best friends only poke you with straws.

So having your "friend" stab you in the back maybe hard, but eventually you learn to let go. You learn that as you get older you realize who really matters, who NEVER will, and who always has. Just because you get hurt doesn't mean you should become a slut or not let anyone in ever again. It means you just have to work that much harder to be the better person and above all forgive and forget. Learn that the people that truly matter in life, they want you to be happy, they support you. They wont stab you in the back. They may poke you with straws.

Where I am going with this is. Just because I was hurt, I didn't want to look at anyone, I didn't want to get hurt again, I just wanted to guard my heart. The only way I thought I could be able to do this, is if I cut off everybody. Not let anyone else in, but then I did. I forgave them and I forgot them. Doing this, I finally smiled again, not just a fake smile that you give to make people happy. A real smile. I realized that I am a senior in high school. I don't need to find anyone for the rest of my life. I just need to live in the now. I need to be free to do things I want to accomplish while in high school. I need to just be me. I don't need someone dragging me down with them because they aren't happy with life. Even if that means losing someone or two that you cared about. Life doesn't get easier, but I got smarter and I learned that if I put my mind to something, no matter what it is. I will succeed. I can do anything this year, that I want. I don't have anyone to wait around for. You can either care about me or not. I am learning that true friends and true people, will back you up, even when your wrong. They are the kind of people I want in my life.

There is no room for fake people in my life anymore. <3