People from dusk till done have been asking all of us, "What do you want to do with your life after high school, or for that matter, while your still in high school?" Life has always had its up's and its down's while in this place, but no matter what happened I knew I would have my friends to back me up. When I had a problem, I knew that they would be there. Out in this "real world," it won’t be the same. I won’t be able to run to them when a boy hurts me, I fall down, or I just need a hug.
So what I want to do this year is re-find myself. I haven't had two weeks to myself since I can remember and really deal with who I want to be. I know that I want to be a writer, but what else do I really want out of life, or out of the next 400 days for that matter? I want to be me and not have to worry about hurting someone else's feelings for doing so. I want to find who I really am. I know who I am, in a way, but not who I can be. "Who you are today effects tomorrow" says my dad. He's right. What choices we make down to what shoes we wear that day? Everything will come back and will either make you or break you.
So, this life that everyone wants to have, and only some get. We shouldn't be taking it for granted. We should be thankful that we even have one. I think that this year alone. I want to find who I really can be, from who I am. Be myself and not have to worry. That's all everyone ever does. Worry. For what? All it does is stress us out and make us break out. So, this next year and the rest of my life, can come full on, if I'm ready or not. I only get one life to live. So, I'm ready to do it right.
Andrea, this post made me smile. There are many points I like and agree on.
ReplyDeleteI like how you made the statement "I know who I am, but not who I can be" This is where so many people get stuck. They feel they know who they are, so they become content. They no longer try to figure out what else they can do, can be, or what else is out there in the world for them. It's great that you see this, and I'm excited to read more of your thoughts as you continue to blog.
One thought I also had while I was reading was how you mentioned that eventually you'll no longer have your friends to run to. This is somewhat of a fear of mine, losing those close to me, and I can tell I've already put more energy into building my closest and most important friendships, so that when the time comes for us to begin going in different directions we will be able handle it. My friends are in agreement with me, we don't want to lose each other, we're each others support system. I just thought it was neat how you brought this up.
And on not taking this life for granted.. Amen, sister. You go, find out who you are. Be the best you can be. Do everything you can. People regret things they didn't do more than things they did do. I think you'll do great with this blog, potentially using it as an outlet to your life, in the ways you're making it better, in your goals. Keep it up!
Shannon - BCLUW