Have you ever had a heart beak...

Every girl can agree with me that when you fall for someone, you want her to catch you. What happens when they don't? What happens when they just let you fall? You end up with a broken heart. They all hurt just the same, just people deal with them differently. When you are hurt by one you care about, even if they don't know it yet.

Every girl has had their heart broken at least once or twice, by the people that put it back together again. Every time I seem to let someone in, all it does is backfire in my face. Who knows why I keep doing it? I should know, but I don't. No matter how hard I try to put up every guard up, they all seem to break down when I think I might have found a nice guy. It somehow always blowing up in my face and they becomes a dick. No matter how hard I seem to try. Nothing works, getting that person that broke your heart out of your head. You think about it all the time. What if things were different? Why did this happen?

You can’t change people’s minds. You can’t make someone care about you. As a girl, you just have to hope and pray that one day you will find the right guy, and that he won't let you go for the world. Every girl in my opinion deserves a guy that would hold her when she's crying, love her when she's angry, and kiss her when she needs to just be reminded that your always there for her when she needs you. Through it all, that mean's everything guy's. True love won't ever give you a heart break, so when your heart stops breaking, and its because of a boy, don't let him out of your site, don't let anything or anyone come between you and that boy.

I believe there is such thing as true love and love at first site. Even, if you don't. It took two weeks together, that’s it, two weeks for me to care about you. Now, you may have hurt me, so I know two things. One you aren't the prince to stop the hurt, and two you’re too much of a coward to be a man and tell someone how you really feel. Either way, guys will hurt you. It's what you do with that pain that really matters. Revenge is sweet, but finding someone else, might be sweeter.

Everyone will get a broken heart. Some may come more then others, but the right person, won't ever make you cry twice over something that they have done. If they do, then maybe they aren't the right person for you. I strongly believe that there is a person out there for every girl and every guy. It's just finding that person is the hard part. You may have to kiss a few frogs, before you find your prince. In the end, finding the one. Will be worth it.

My best friend knows..

My best friend and I are like barbies, but unlike normal barbies, we aren't sold with out one another. Through the thick and the thin, I have always had her and would be so lost with out her. I'm proud to call my best friend Abbigale H.
99% of the time. I honestly don't know what I would do with out her. Shes always there when I need her most. A little birdie once told her that to make my stop crying "just hold her and don't let do, even if she pushes away, keep holding her." So the night that Alex left for his deployment she did just that. She also reminded me that it's only 400 days. She has always been my "go to girl" when times are rough. When I need a sister, I look across the street.
Her and her family treat me like their own. Come over whenever. Call her mom, mom. No matter what, this blonde and Burnett have am inseparable bond. No boy, or girl could beat us down to where we would be sold separately. I can kid any boy, but when I say I'm fine to her, she knows that I am lying, and she knows my hearts in deploying training, making sure my heart is prepared for the one it likes to leave. I love my girl to death and will always be hoes/bros.

New year, New me.

People from dusk till done have been asking all of us, "What do you want to do with your life after high school, or for that matter, while your still in high school?" Life has always had its up's and its down's while in this place, but no matter what happened I knew I would have my friends to back me up. When I had a problem, I knew that they would be there. Out in this "real world," it won’t be the same. I won’t be able to run to them when a boy hurts me, I fall down, or I just need a hug.

So what I want to do this year is re-find myself. I haven't had two weeks to myself since I can remember and really deal with who I want to be. I know that I want to be a writer, but what else do I really want out of life, or out of the next 400 days for that matter? I want to be me and not have to worry about hurting someone else's feelings for doing so. I want to find who I really am. I know who I am, in a way, but not who I can be. "Who you are today effects tomorrow" says my dad. He's right. What choices we make down to what shoes we wear that day? Everything will come back and will either make you or break you.

So, this life that everyone wants to have, and only some get. We shouldn't be taking it for granted. We should be thankful that we even have one. I think that this year alone. I want to find who I really can be, from who I am. Be myself and not have to worry. That's all everyone ever does. Worry. For what? All it does is stress us out and make us break out. So, this next year and the rest of my life, can come full on, if I'm ready or not. I only get one life to live. So, I'm ready to do it right.